The Cassie Bell Chronicles

Overthinking

is such a bitch. It seems all I can do lately, what with my inability to sleep and all. Everything was going just fine; things were back to normal with me and him. And then something changed. I sure as hell can’t tell you what. But something has definitely changed with him, and it’s not something good. It was at first; he was more affectionate and a lot nicer. But now he’s distant and barely speaks to me. Only around in large groups, or when she’s around as well. I don’t suspect them; I was the one defending them when her boyfriend did. But I can’t say that their growing friendship doesn’t bother me. He’s my best friend, as selfish as that may sound. I don’t want to share. I enjoy my position in his life and I don’t want to make room. I sure as hell don’t want to be cast aside. I hate this feeling that is practically overwhelming me; this horrible, lingering feeling that there is something wrong. That there is something terrible coming and he’s just waiting for the right moment for it. It’s getting to the point where I can’t hide the mood anymore. And I can’t come up with excuses for it on the spot either. I’m so used to being able to hide my emotions that I’m not used to making up excuses for them. I want my alone time with him back. I want my normal best friend back. I just want everything that we used to have back. I just hope I’m wrong about these feelings, and he comes back around soon.